I remember feeling tired when the boys were babies and trying my best to get through the days and nights. In the back of my mind I was thinking, it won't always be like this.
I remember when the boys looked so small in the tub and how they loved to splash, and play in the water. Then all the sudden their bodies stretched the length of the tub. They no longer needed my help to make sure the soap didn't get in their eyes when I shampooed their hair.
Then Chris and Mark started school. Mornings were busy getting ready for school and making sure their homework was in their backpacks. Sometimes lunches were prepared and I drove them to school or I made sure they were at the bus stop on time.
It was a wonderful feeling to take a walk and hold their little hands. Someone said, We hold our children's hands for a little while, but they hold our heart forever...
These interactions are just a portion of the memories I have with Chris and Mark. I wonder if I stopped to let them soak into my mind and heart. But I feel so grateful for all the simple moments I had with my sons. Those days were so fleeting.
I find myself reliving those feelings with my grandsons. Last night Colby wanted to take a bath with Grahm. Colby does stretch the length of the tub. He doesn't need my help to scrub up anymore. I'm thankful Grey and Grahm still do! For many years I have played "no more monkey's jumping on the bed" with them. After a bath, I hold them while they jump, then I lift them above my head, and kiss their bellies. Colby wanted me to do monkey's with him last night. I was sad he's now too big to have me lift him and let him jump on the bed. He seemed to understand. Grahm remembers monkey's now and after I put his jammies on, he starts jumping and smiling.
Cash is almost as tall as me and has become more independent. He still gives nice hugs and likes to hang out with me. He's a good sport and goes along with our activities, even if they are for the younger boys.
Grey still lets me hold his hand and I help him wash his hair. He says, I love you often and gives the best hugs.
There are some things that I hope will never change. I will always be their grandma. I always want a hug and to be able to spend time with them. We won't always go to Provo Beach or the park to play but I will find new ways to stay connected.
I know it won't always be like it is now, but I will continue to savor each moment I have with Cash, Colby, Grey, and Grahm.
